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on watching DID Youtube (plus: Who’s Out First)
Youtube has started reccing me channels of “plural systems making educational content based on their own experiences,” so I’ve been watching the backlogs of a bunch of those recently.
It’s…complicated?
There’s a wide range of how personal/emotional people are willing to get on-camera. (I’m just going to say “people” here, rather than trying to specify “systems and/or headmates” all the time.) But the most mild or detached videos can still touch on really vulnerable content, even before you get to the ones that deal more directly with trauma.
On the one hand: I don’t want to be judgy and paternalistic about how other people handle their mental health. I’m not their PR person. I’m definitely not the Cringe Police. People are actively filming, editing, and uploading these videos, they have self-determination, I want to honor that.
On the other: When I follow the direct links of channels recommending each other (as opposed to “the algorithm has recs for currently-popular videos”), a lot of them have been privated and/or wiped. Most of the active ones where I’ve watched a lot of the backlog, I’ve heard them make a reference to some specific video they deleted. There were actually a handful of systems whose channels I subscribed to 10 years ago — all of those are gone.
So there’s this recurring question of, when does it stop being cool to watch something? Where’s the line between “this is interesting, I’m learning things, the creator(s) will appreciate the support” and “this is invasive, I’m being ghoulish, the creator(s) will ultimately feel exploited”?
Most of the time it doesn’t come up! (At least, not in the channels I’ve ended up subscribed to.) I’ve shared links to some specific videos, where they were on-topic, when I felt good about watching the whole thing.
But then some videos I tap out partway through. Or I make it all the way to the end, but then go “you know what, I don’t feel great about having watched that, I’m not going to save or share it anywhere.”
And how many of those videos can one channel post, before you feel bad (or should feel bad) about sharing around the channel as a whole?
Ugh. Like I said. Complicated.
…to finish this off on a nice note, I ended up on this 2002 archive.org capture of a page that’s no longer live, and there’s a collection of jokes at the end.
This sketch was fun enough that I wanted to copy and save it on a more-searchable, less-dead site. I didn’t write it, the source doesn’t say who did write it, I just like it.
(CW for the characters mentioning suicide.)
Who’s Out First (a parody of Who’s On First)
– Okay, so who’s out first?
– No, Who was out yesterday.
– Who?
– Yes, Who.
– Okay, I’m asking you who was out and you’re telling me Who?
– Yes, Who.
– Well who are you?
– I’m not Who, I’m Nobody.
– Nobody?
– Nobody.
– But you can’t be nobody – you have to be somebody.
– No, Somebody’s generally angry.
– Who is angry?
– No, Who is happy. Angry is also angry.
– Of course angry is angry, but you’re definitely somebody.
– No, I’m Nobody.
– Ok, let me see if I have this…. you’re no one..
– No, I’m Nobody…. No One was out this morning.
– No one was out?
– Yeah, No One.
– Well if no one was out, who was I talking to?
– No One.
– Nobody?
– No – No One.
– Something’s wrong here….
– No, Something has been sleeping for a while.
– Who has been sleeping?
– No, Something has been sleeping. Who was out yesterday.
– But something has to be someone, doesn’t he?
– No, Someone is a he, Something is a she.
– Huh?
– Huh is asexual.
– Huh?
– Yeah, Huh.
– Excuse me, I’m going to commit suicide.
– You can’t – that’s Suicide’s job.
– AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!
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US health insurance is way better in 2023 than it was when that page was live! ...Still with more than its share of holes, sadly =(
Small internet indeed. (I'm sure it helps that we're both DW fans...who knows how quick we would've lost all contact if one or both of us had migrated to, say, Reddit.)